Do you ever ask why?

Do you ever ask why?


Do you ever question why you are doing what you are doing?

As a young girl I was a very good swimmer.  Like county level.  I used to swim 6 times a week, never questioning why, just getting up early, doing length after length, like a machine.

A couple of years ago I swam the channel, virtually.  That is, I swam 1967 lengths of the pool in 6 weeks, for charity.  It took a while for my muscles to remember, but the machine came back.

Today, I went swimming, and I realised that from the moment I decide to go swimming, a voice starts going in my head.  The machine’s voice.

Swimming for joy

Swimming for joy

I have to be productive.

I have to swim 50 lengths

Oh I’m tired, maybe I’ll just do 30.

Don’t give up Susie, come on you can at least do 40.

And so on, and so on.

Today, I realised how quiet it was.  There was no voice.  I was enjoying myself.  I wasn’t thinking about what I had to do, or counting lengths.  I was just swimming.

Feeling the freedom of the water.

Gazing at the dappled effect that the sun had on the pool.

Feeling the warmth of the water

Feeling good about the strength of my body.

And then it came to me.

I have been turning my back on all of this for years; making swimming a chore, rather than that thing I do for me.  For peace, for my enjoyment, and my enjoyment alone.

What are you letting pass you by? 

If you have heard of mindfulness – this is a glimpse of it.  Appreciating what you are doing right now.  Not beating yourself up for what you should be doing.  Or thinking about what to pick up from the supermarket on the way home!

Just this moment.

Reflect on that today.  Have you noticed a time when your mind is just quiet?  When your inner critic is silent?

I’d love to hear about it.

If you can’t connect with a time like this, or you want more of it, maybe it’s time to get some help.  You can book your free discovery call here:

Susie x

P.S. Watch out for my new interview series which is on the topic of the inner critic, coming soon……

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